I was in relationship

I was in relationship

Fiuh, it’s been a year from that moment huh.. I’m not sure if it’s like yesterday or a thousand year. I’m not even sure if this is appropriate to be shared or not, but ya, I’m gonna share this anyway.

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Throughout my life, I was close to some girls, but many of which only ended up with small talks or coffee dates without further stories. Yes I was never in a relationship. Sometimes the reasons were on the women’s side, but most of the time, I was the main cause. I find myself quite easy to be attracted to girls but extremely difficult to be attached to them.

Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t mean to play around with those girls. In fact, every time I dated a girl, I always hoped that girl will be right one. The hopes always felt like that step will be the last step needed to get to the top of the mountain, or the last note that completes the whole harmony, or the final word that could sum up the entire story. I always hoped that that will be the end of the searching, that that will end well.

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I love you is not enough

I love you is not enough

It was 30 minutes before the midnight when a chat notification came into my phone. I called him Cimeng, one of my best friends when I was in college. The name Cimeng in bahasa Indonesia means weed. My circle gave him that nickname because his face constantly looked like someone who was under drugs influence. 

“Are you busy?” he asked.

I always knew, random text in the middle of the nights means he just experienced a bad thing. Most of the times the bad thing was related to his romance story. He kinda sucks in doing relationship.

“No mate, what’s up?” I replied.

“Well, it’s about the story I told you last time. Can I call you?”

“Sure.”

Not long after that my phone rang, a voice call from him through WhatsApp application showed up on the screen. 

He started to share his story about a girl he adored in the office. I knew he’d been approaching this girl quite long time, and I knew how much effort he had given just to get a single glimpse from the girl. It wasn’t very smooth, but he did it anyway.

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Embrace Yourself

Embrace Yourself

When I ask you about your first love. I am silently wishing that you’re going to say your own name.

So that I know, every choice that you make is based upon your conscience. So if one day you ask me to be on your side, I know that it will be your final decision.

So before that, please embrace yourself. Be alone, eat alone, and take yourself on dates. Only then you could learn about yourself in a deeper level. Only then you could hear the whisper of your heart.

Motivation

Motivation

What was your strongest reason to do something? I mean, something that crazily drives you to act or behave in a certain way. Do you still remember what was it?

Some of you might say most of the reasons are money, reward, experience, or acknowledgement. Some even say game station, food, and toys. I think there is totally nothing wrong with all of them. Sometimes I got my motivation from those reasons as well.

And sometimes people get motivation in a very mysterious way. She is “The Altair“, a girl who turns my world upside down, from unmotivated person into a man who is willing to struggle to pursue his dreams. Read more

Dear calon istri

Img src: http://www.simplemost.com/habits-happy-couples/

Hai apa kabar kamu disana? Semoga kamu selalu dibawah perlindungan-NYA ya.
Alhamdulillah disini aku baik-baik aja, semoga engkau juga demikian. Amanahku, jangan lupa sholatnya, jaga kesehatan, makan teratur dan sayurnya jangan lupa dimaem juga. hahaha… 


Kamu lagi ngapain? Mungkin kamu sekarang sedang sibuk memantaskan diri ya?, percayalah aku juga demikian. Aku memang belum sempurna dan tak akan pernah sempurna, tapi aku berjanji akan berusaha menjadi imam sekaligus ayah terbaik untuk kamu dan anak-anak kita kelak. Sampai saat itu tiba, jangan pernah mengeluh apalagi menyerah atas cobaan yang engkau alami, karna semua cobaan itulah yang akan menempa kita menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Ingatlah, aku di belahan bumi yang lain sedang berjuang bersamamu. Semoga perjuangan kita menjumpai akhir yang bahagia baik di dunia maupun di akhirat. 

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Love Letter

Dear Adiks,
 
I used to hate saying “I Love You” and others flirting words to a girl. Besides it sounds cliche for me, I also believe that action speaks louder than words. I used to laugh at other guys when they flirt on their girls. But do you know what? Now there are thousands similar words swarm inside my head urge to be expressed, and I bet you don’t want to hear all of those boring words. I need to make it short but how am I suppose to express all of them? While those common three words can’t even depict the magnitude nor the depth of my emotions. I want to be able to create a new metaphor that would erupt like a volcano when you read my message, so hopefully you will understand my heart condition now. Unfortunately I can’t, this is just too much, I’m not a poet who can produce romantic sentences like all women always dreamed of. Instead of being romantic, I’d prefer to illustrate my feeling in the way I treat you, the way I share my affection. But special in this occasion, please let me show my tremendous feeling by saying “I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST!!!”.
 
Deepest feeling 
Kakaks
 
 
 
Bintang Altair

Bintang Altair

 

I think the universe is on my side
Heaven and Earth have finally aligned
Days are good and that’s the way it should be

You sprinkle star dust on my pillow case
It’s like a moonbeam brushed across my face
Nights are good and that’s the way it should be

Potongan lirik Bright dari Echosmith ini tak bosan-bosannya ku ulang beberapa hari belakangan. Suara yang merdu ditambah alunan musik yang lembut menjadi kombinasi yang pas untuk didengar, belum lagi lirik yang mengena dengan pengalaman pribadi. Sungguh kolaborasi sempurna pemicu banjirnya dophamine di otakku. Sebuah hormon yang menyebabkan rasa bahagia dan ketergantungan akan sesuatu, sering juga disebut sebagai hormon cinta.

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Berhubungan dengan komitmen

 sumber gambar: http://static.eharmony.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/readyforrelationship.jpg
Pernah mencoba berhubungan dengan komitmen?
Hubungan yg dimaksud disini adalah berhubungan tanpa status pacaran, dalam arti kedua pasangan membuat komitmen untuk ke depan, namun tidak memberi status dalam hubungan tersebut.
Istilahnya seperti single, but not available.
Jadi kalau ditanya “ masih single?,” jawabnya “iya”.
Tapi begitu ditawarin dikenalkan dengan orang lain, jawabnya “ Sorry, I’m not available“.
Tapi ada juga yang tetap menjalankan dengan status “in a relationship“, namun tetap berkomitmen bahwa hubungan tersebut akan berakhir di pelaminan, atau setidaknya tidak membuka hubungan untuk orang lain alias sold out.

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Untukmu, Tujuan Akhirku Memantaskan Diri

“Aku pernah mencoba dengan dia yang salah. Kau pernah gagal menjelajahi labirin hatinya sampai kehilangan arah.
Tapi bukankah setiap pagi selalu menawarkan kesempatan baru? Bukankah setiap orang berhak atas perjalanan yang lebih menjanjikan untuk dijalani kemudian?
Demimu, aku rela menunggu. Demi kau, aku bersabar dan berjibaku demi memantaskan diriku.”

Hey kamu, yang juga sedang berjuang menahan diri

Apa kabar dirimu? Jika bisa, rasanya ingin kutawarkan tempat duduk di sisiku khusus untukmu. Ingin kupandang wajahmu lekat-lekat lalu bertanya,
“Beratkah hari-harimu belakangan ini? Cukup menyenangkan kah pekerjaan yang sedang kau jalani? Atau kau masih berkutat dengan teori dan buku yang membuatmu terjaga sampai dini hari?”
Harapanku, semoga kamu dan kehidupanmu di sana berjalan mulus tanpa gangguan yang berarti. Doaku tak putus-putus untukmu, kukirim dari sini.
Seandainya sekarang kita sudah bisa berjumpa, ingin kuceritakan semua rasa yang sudah sekian lama mengendap di udara. Melihat kuatnya hasratku bercerita, tampaknya kelak pertemuan kita akan lebih mirip reuni dua sahabat lama dibanding pertemuan dua orang yang sedang dimabuk cinta.
Sampai hari itu tiba, kumohon tabahkan dirimu. Semesta sedang berjingkat mengurus pertemuan kita di satu masa paling sempurna. Yakinlah ia akan segera ada di hadapan mata.