Embrace Yourself

Embrace Yourself

When I ask you about your first love. I am silently wishing that you’re going to say your own name.

So that I know, every choice that you make is based upon your conscience. So if one day you ask me to be on your side, I know that it will be your final decision.

So before that, please embrace yourself. Be alone, eat alone, and take yourself on dates. Only then you could learn about yourself in a deeper level. Only then you could hear the whisper of your heart.


How she smiles at me,
that’s how I find peace within my soul.
It sounds ridiculous, and it’s always the
way it happened. The only way my mind
cannot agree with my heart.

Her smile is irresistible to me.
Just like a drug, so beautiful, so fantastic.
In the other side, it is also so dangerous,
so wild, and yet addictive. And every time
I see it, I cannot refrain to keep staring on it.
I know I should have stopped all the things
before it’s gone too far. But I just can’t.

Her existence is like drinking salt water
>while thirst devouring my tongue.
I perhaps feel a little bit better at the
beginning, a little bit less thirsty for awhile.
But it wouldn’t be so long before my tongue
agonizing more pain of thirst.

It repeated every time we met.
My brain rebels while my heart enjoys the flow.
And there are illogical things happened in between.

Rahmalianto, 31 May 2016

Love Letter

Dear Adiks,
I used to hate saying “I Love You” and others flirting words to a girl. Besides it sounds cliche for me, I also believe that action speaks louder than words. I used to laugh at other guys when they flirt on their girls. But do you know what? Now there are thousands similar words swarm inside my head urge to be expressed, and I bet you don’t want to hear all of those boring words. I need to make it short but how am I suppose to express all of them? While those common three words can’t even depict the magnitude nor the depth of my emotions. I want to be able to create a new metaphor that would erupt like a volcano when you read my message, so hopefully you will understand my heart condition now. Unfortunately I can’t, this is just too much, I’m not a poet who can produce romantic sentences like all women always dreamed of. Instead of being romantic, I’d prefer to illustrate my feeling in the way I treat you, the way I share my affection. But special in this occasion, please let me show my tremendous feeling by saying “I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST!!!”.
Deepest feeling