Know Thyself

Know Thyself

Around 2400 years ago in Athens of Greece, there lived a cute boy from one of the wealthiest and the most influential families. His father provided every facility for his development. Grammar class, music class, gymnastics class, ballet class, all from the greatest teachers in the city. Wait, I guess he didn’t take ballet class. But he grew very well, sharp and talented; unfortunately, without the ballet skill. People recognized him as a bright though modest boy who excelled in his studies.

Raised in the era of philosophy, he studied under some of the era’s most distinguished teachers: Socrates. He learned a lot about Socrates’ philosophy. One of them is how to reach the state that he termed: “Eudaimonia” which means ‘fulfilment’. Unlike Socrates who never wrote anything about his thoughts, this boy wrote lots of them. He wrote 36 books, all dialogues with his teacher beautifully crafted scripts of imaginary discussions. These then became the root of modern philosophy.

A few years went by. Then a few more. And then . . . nothing happened.  Just a little bit older, but still cute. He then created his own philosophy. One of them is the idea of how to reach Eudaimonia: “Think Harder”. In his opinion, our lives go wrong because we barely give ourselves time to think carefully and logically about our lives and how to live them. So we end up with the wrong values, careers and relationships. Read more

I Don’t Know My Name – Grace VanderWaal

I Don’t Know My Name – Grace VanderWaal

I don’t know my name
I don’t play by the rules of the game
So you say I’m just trying, just trying

So I heard you are my sister’s friend
You get along quite nicely
You ask me why I cut my hair
And changed myself completely

I don’t know my name
I don’t play by the rules of the game
So you say I’m just trying, just trying

I went from bland and popular
To joining the marching band
I made the closest friends
I’ll ever have in my lifetime

I am lost, trying to get found
In an ocean of people

Please don’t ask me any questions
There won’t be a valid answer
I’ll just say that
I don’t know my name
I don’t play by the rules of the game
So you say I’m just trying, just trying

I now know my name
I don’t play by the rules of the game
So you say, I’m not trying
But I’m trying, to find my way

Grace VanderWaal

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For the first time, I brave myself to change

For the first time, I brave myself to change

After I was overwhelmed with lots of things in my surrounding, I decided to change myself completely. Ya I decided to be bald.

I am bored of following popular opinions, while I actually have a different perspective about them.

I am sick of pretending to be okay, when in fact I’m actually not.

I am tired of being people pleaser and sacrificing my own happiness.

I am exhausted of being nicely fit in to society, while in reality every piece inside me is screaming because it doesn’t fit my personality.

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Weird Happiness

Weird Happiness

Sometimes I miss my childhood…

In a way where, my happiness was just so simple. Even a stupidity of false belief could bring happiness in my daily.

I remember when I was a kid, on 6th birthday my dad gave me a special present. Guess what, when other kids got a roller skate, PlayStation, or remote controller car, my dad gave me… a couple of CHICKENS. Yeah it was a rooster and a hen.

To be honest, I didn’t have a clear idea about the reason why my dad gave me a couple of chickens. At least the reason for why should it be on my birthday. Seriously, what kind of dad give his beloved son a couple of teen chickens on the special day?

Probably he wanted me to learn how to share love, or probably he saw my quality as a caretaker and visualized me to be an eminent breeder in the future.

From the way the chickens seeing each other I can say: those teen chickens were falling in love, ready to make a further commitment as a family. And I knew, I was the third wheeler in their relationship. Thanks dad, I learnt how to be a third wheeler since my early age. Pffttt…

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Too Good To Be True

Too Good To Be True

We all have that experience, when things are so good and it is hard to believe. For example, you got an SMS about winning a million dollar door prize from unknown number. Or you find something in online store, it claims as the lowest price in the world for great quality while actually it’s only a fake product. Or, someone that out of the blue treats you so nice, while actually they are just buttering you up.

There are a lot of similar experience happened throughout our lives. Well experience makes us learn. And after several times trapped in that kind of illusive situation, I slowly realize that good always follows bad, and vice versa. Just like Yin Yang, light and darkness always complete one another. So if there is an extreme goodness, something will surely go wrong.

Now I have a very strong intuition for things that smells very fishy. And every time I face with similar position, I’d rather have a second-guess for the worst thing that probably happened. Well, even dawn comes after the darkest. So I decided to only believe in effort and reputation. If I want something great, then work for it.

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Embrace Yourself

Embrace Yourself

When I ask you about your first love. I am silently wishing that you’re going to say your own name.

So that I know, every choice that you make is based upon your conscience. So if one day you ask me to be on your side, I know that it will be your final decision.

So before that, please embrace yourself. Be alone, eat alone, and take yourself on dates. Only then you could learn about yourself in a deeper level. Only then you could hear the whisper of your heart.