I don’t know how to express how grateful I am to say goodbye to 2018. To be honest I have no regrets to look back on 2018. Although it wasn’t the best year, it taught me a lot about the importance of loving myself and the importance of being my true self. For me, it is the year of ‘Authenticity’.
2018 had been a year of embracing my imperfections and accepting the person I am. I found contentment in my journey and I’m grateful to be where I am now. I accepted myself wholeheartedly and I’m excited about growing to be my ideal self, not the ideal person of someone else. I stopped rushing for the next achievement to possess but to slow down and be fully present. I was slowly in tune with my feeling and realized that happiness is a journey, not a destination that I can rush towards. I started embracing my shortcomings and insecurities instead of surrendering to the dark voices in my head telling me that, I wasn’t good enough.
My 2017 was beautifully colored by plot twists, ups and downs, glories and sorrows. The year I found another side of “me”. The year of “Self Discovery”.
2017 has given me new experiences, new perspectives, and new ways of thinking.
When I rewind every hardship, burdens, loss and heartaches; I remember – yes, I went through hell last year — but I made it through. And now I am more powerful than ever. The pain has strengthened me. It helped me to grow. It helps me to have a better understanding to the people of all sorts. Now I know what kind of toxic people I should keep far away from me, or at the very least, I know how to deal with them.
When I recall every celebrations, joys and glories; I realize – yes, the road in 2017 was not always smooth. But it shapes me anyway. And those lessons have given me the rewards that I deserve to own. Instead of seeing 2017 as a failure, I’d rather take that as I was training my best, as I was trying my hardest. I don’t dare to start 2018 by a negative thought. So I want to proudly saying “YES – I am WORTHY of all the rewards”. Because It’s when you’re up against the wall that your true character shows.
Now, I know a little bit more about myself and the way I want to live my life to completion.